Posted by Gnap @ Wed 01 Nov, 06, 11:33PM under Ngam2 Cham2
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Snippets of what's in my head recently (some of them may seem silly or unfounded, but they're mine nonetheless):
I finally understand what is “unconditional love”. It’s when you’re willing to sacrifice everything (including your own life) for someone, and it doesn’t matter if they love you back or want to be with you, or not. ………………… Children make you feel this way.
The feeling of being appreciated and understood, even after you've spoken your mind and being a pain in the neck, is really quite awesome. :)
There is no sight more beautiful and peaceful, than to watch your child in deep slumber.
True leaders are not made. They shine from within.
Why is it that sometimes, friends are closer than kin? Someone once said (I think it was KK) that it's cos - friends you get to choose. Kin, you are born to, whether you like it or not.
That if someone don’t look me in the eye when talking to me; does not necessarily mean they have something to hide, or that they're against me. Apparently, it can simply be because they are shy.
Sometimes in life, we come across things, places or people that touches our lives, but which/where/whom we cannot have or keep with us for some reason or other. N sometimes, the wisest thing to do is to let things flow it’s natural cause. Bcos, if it’s good for you in the first place, God will let you have your way in the end.
I've started to like eating bitter gourd in recent yrs. Guess I stopped being able to distinguish bitters and sweets...
They say to be where you wanna be in life, you have to have goals. Always. At least one. I have never had one. All these years, I just did things as they come. Yet, I’m happy where I am today. I guess if you try to be a good person (granted – we make mistakes sometimes), God will always watch over you. So the other saying is true – that “God provides”. [The cantonese call this "sor yan yao sor fook" :P]
To be admired by someone you admire. That's like - WOW!
Here’s a long one (thought):
I used to visit Pantai Hospital a lot, when we used to send my kids to the padaetrician at Pantai. For the past year, we switched to Island Hosp. And for our biyrly wellness check-ups, we go to Adventist. All 3 hospitals are pretty modernised in facilities, service style and most of all the atmostphere. In Pantai and esp Island, getting hospitalised is like checking into a hotel. But last Fri, for logistics reasons, I went to LamWahEe’s ENT consultant for an ear infection. Dr Jonathan Deong was good. But, being in this particular hosp, gave me the creeps (BIG time). I’ve never felt more depressed walkin into a hospital in Penang. They make you queue in lines for registration. (I queued for half an hour). Then, waited for another 2.5hrs (all in, fr 9am to 12noon) b4 the doctor finally saw me. While waiting in the big waiting hall u're stuck in the company of all kinds of sick ppl around you. (Note: the other hospitals have separate waiting rooms for different consultations. Eg. all padaetric clinics have 1 waiting hall, obstetrician in another, etc etc.) Note there is also no mags or papers around, so for 3 hrs, I was drowned in depressing “scenery”.
The floor tiles in sandblasted pale yellow, walls in pale bluish beige - already make me wanna run away. I look around (have to - u can't jes be starin at ur own toes for 3hrs, rite?!). An Indon guy (who looks terribly like CannyOng’s murderer) sat nearby with a nose profusely runny. An old man in his 70s who was wheeled around (for some reason) by his son, has hands and lower jaw that couldn’t stop shaking. I think that’s Parkinson kuar. A bald famished looking nun, with very dry skin, wearing a really oversized sweater, looking very miserable, sits directly infront of me. A rude Chinese woman in her 40s, who acted like her husband was the big Bro of 3 little dragons (or whatcha call that notorious gang), was arguing loudly with a nurse, apparently complaining the long wait. A little naughty boy was playing by himself rolling on the floor, unwittingly gathering germs, and I wonder where his parents were!! The list goes on ……. Luckily, the waiting seats were comfy, else it’d hv been complete hell. I tried to make conversation with the indian woman beside me, to kill time, but obviously everyone were too preocupied with the pain they were there to treat, than to converse with a deaf pimpled-face Ah Ji (me). So I sent a few smses to kacau some frens. :P
After this episode, it just make you want to be very healthy, so you won’t have to be in a place like this again! Especially when you have 2 kids whose happiness and wellbeing depends on you.
Couple of days ago, someone said I think too much. Well, d thing is - if I don't, why am I here? ;)
Hah... i know exactly what you mean about the hospitals. I was admitted to Pantai once, and uh... the company medical card could afford a single-room, so it DID felt like checking into a hotel indeed. Hahaha....
And then I went to Lam Wah Ee for a blood test.
Needless to say, same feeling of "Get me outta Here, stat!".
Also visitted a friend in Adventist, it's pretty cool, especially the paedeatrics...
When ppl were frantically looking for unconditional love from a partner, I knew that it could most probably only be found from a parent to a child. A love above all else.
Gnap @ Fri 17-11-06 08:10AM
haha Show off lah.. got PDA. I onli got hp, if play mp3 the battery gone fast fast. :P
after reading the long one, sadly, i have been to LWE many many times from the old toilet havent being renovated til the whole portion being re-designed...
i dont care much though about the surrounding in the waiting room as i will play chinese chess on my PDA...
but...
agree 100% on the duration of waiting...
SIPEK LONG TIME!
Gnap @ Thu 09-11-06 02:41PM
True oso, true oso. *wide grin*
Btw, u were away fr ur blog for so long that i was beginning to worry. Glad ur back now. :)
For item 9 (in yellow), I think wanting to be a GOOD person IS a goal! Our core values are our driving forces :)
That's why u r happy with your life.. Which I'm happy for you :) Don't underestimate ourselves, sometimes.
Gnap @ Wed 08-11-06 07:55AM
Cheer up, Kusanagi. It will pass.... :)
kusanagi @ Tue 07-11-06 11:48AM
gnap: thanks, but my tummy is not flat unfortunately. I will be going back and forth to the hospital the next 2 weeks for observation. Having several bouts of depression at the mo. But nothing to fret about.
Gnap @ Sat 04-11-06 09:38PM
Hi Kusanagi, no wonder u've been awfully quiet recently. Hope ur better now. Welcome back! So, ur tummy must be real flat now eh! ;)
Guest: No, I don't believe what u wrote will scare off anyone.
In fact, I actually agree with - "So don't forget to enjoy yourself along the way... and even when life is hard at times, do your best, stay positive and be happy... all are but temporary!" And - "be good, do good, forgive(the hardest) and god bless!"
These r exactly the things i tell myself ALL THE TIME!!! Oft times, we are too carried away with petty stuff that we forget the BIGger picture. :)
Guest @ Sat 04-11-06 01:23AM
Talking about hospital...I still remember lying in the ICU (some 10 over years ago) where I am half dead and hearing the patient next to me struggling with breath..and making sounds (hai..hai..hai..) dying I guess. Life is so precarious... I can even remember an old patient in the same ward calling out from his bed "young man... you must hang on" a nice word of encouragement even when he himself is very ill...
At that moment, a feeling of serene and peace not fear even when hearing all the sounds in the night... I guess it is like deep inside there is a sudden realisation that nothing else matter anymore... you leave it to fate and surrender... no worry, no fear, no noise in the mind, a real rest.
"Cowards die many times before their death, the brave die but once." - Julius Caesar. This verse rang on me and ironically give me strength at critical stage to hang on, be brave...
I guess my time was not up at that time and after the recovery, I remind myself not to take life too seriously as human life is so fragile.
So don't forget to enjoy yourself along the way... and even when life is hard at times, do your best, stay positive and be happy... all are but temporary !
Hope my story don't scare off your audience.
Cantonese saying "sang sei yao meng, fu kuai choi tin " does hold some hidden wisdom... so be good, do good, forgive(the hardest) and god bless!
Kusanagi @ Fri 03-11-06 07:37PM
I just got discharged from Pantai 2 days ago (after spending a week hospitalised) for severe food poisoning. But the docs were good to get me back on my feet.
Gnap @ Thu 02-11-06 09:24PM
Smurf: Absolutely. :)
Elephunk: yalor. better get slaughtered feeling good (Island) than feel like getting executed by jap soldiers (LWE) n still pay a mountain. My ear treatment cost RM191.85!!!
TK: If there's one thing i never know how to do, it's to explain my thoughts.
H: U r such a twin of mine.
H @ Thu 02-11-06 03:01PM
(On behalf) :P
I agree with you about Lam Wah Ee Hospital. Depression is the word I would describe the feeling inside there. Island is a good one.
For clinic, I like the I-Care. Pretty good doc.
Guest @ Thu 02-11-06 01:42PM
Just wonder , why in a sudden or who or what situation make you think this
"True leaders are not made. They shine from within."
tk
Elephunk @ Thu 02-11-06 01:19PM
LWE is not a good hospital to go to because it makes me feels like a war hospital. Island is excellent but squeezes the dough out of you. Pantai still ok.
Better to think than not to think and get Alzheimer’s
anyways this is my 2 cents
smurf @ Thu 02-11-06 12:59PM
I couldn't agree more with you.....health is wealth...:)
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